When
I lost my son (who was two and half) I truly didn’t think I would survive. I
was angry and bitter for a time, and I really wondered what I was going to do
from that moment on. Life seemed to be really unfair and I doubted that I could
go on. And let me be clear that in no way do I think this was a test by God.
God does not kill a child to test someone. And looking back, Kenneth was a
gateway for me to Christianity. And God was the only way I survived, he propped
me back up on my feet, he took me in his arms and rocked with me until I could
stand on my own two feet.
I
have heard many times that God will never test you more than you can handle and
for the first time I looked it up. Years later the incident with my baby boy I
thought I was tested to the end, or at least in my mind I think it was just
short of the breaking point and I do wonder if I could go through that again,
or maybe even something worse. I hope to never know.
But
here is where I think the key lies, not so much on the faith of 1 Corinthians
that says you won’t be tempted more than you can handle, but more on if
whatever happens to you that you will lean and trust in the lord. This sort of
thinking is a shift from enduring what is thrown at you to being ready for
anything. As it says in Isaiah 40:31 but
those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings
like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.
You have to have hope in the Lord and renew your strength. Or what the bible
says in Philippians 4:13, I can do all
things through Christ who strengthens me. You can do all things, including
surviving tragedy.
So
what I have found during trying times like this, is to shift your attitude from
poor me to help me. And not asking the question, “Lord why have you done this
to me?” but more asking the question, “Now that this has happened Lord, what
should I do? And Lord please help me and give me direction through this.”
Lord,
I pray that all those suffering would knock on your door and seek your face.
Lord I pray that I do not become bitter when I encounter trying times that I
shine your light and not my anger. Thank you Lord for all you help us through.
In Jesus name, Amen.
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